im sad...

today's blog is mainly about my feelings for the past four months i've been in australia.the topic may sounds like childish or watsoeva, but believe me, im in the state of sadness to the date i wrote this blog..so presenting to you..~im sad..~

im sad...when im away from my family-i miss my hommie so badly esp. at this moment..i noe that other people will feel the same way, so do i..but it became stronger each day that im dying to go back to malaysia rite now..

im sad..if im not be able to help my friends..friend in need is yet indeed..but, im also sad if i've been left behind..

im sad...when i feel stress..particularly becoz of the assignments that are so challenging and im not be able to do it well..i know i can do it much better but things  are different when the lectures mark my papers..the results are not satisfying n devastating..

im sad..when i don't know what did i do wrong..every comment is so flowery that i think i shld deserve better than what i got..the comments are so convincing and it makes me thinking why my papers-all of it-didn't excel..im dying to be excellent because i don't want to be at the phase like in IPBA..i want to change but the results are not showing any different n definetly i stress out..

im sad...when my grade is not the same like others..even lower than them..even tho i keep telling myself that this is not about competition where who gets highest or what, the feelings of ashame and kecewa are still there..im so sad with the fact that even tho i started early, the remark is still the same..

im sad...totally sad..with i had now..n im afraid that im not be able to change anything before i go back to Malaysia and certainly before i become a teacher..

im sad...indeed im sad...

Comments

[pnnz]

Dearie Jannah,

I feel the need to post a comment after reading your post. My dear, I understand how you feel about not doing as well as you want to. It often happen to me too. But when it happens, I just remind myself that the process of doing the assignment is most important. We learn from the experience of doing it, and that is the most important thing. And we are going to be teachers. A good teacher is not measured by the 7s or 6s that she has. For me it is how the teacher can give the students the best she can. I believe right now we should focus on shaping the image of the teacher that we want to be. Take everything that we learn at uni as a stepping stone towards becoming good teachers, not just as an ultimate goal to be the best student. Hope this will cheer you up. Let's enjoy uni experience together!

Love,
Puteri

[wooi leong]

Wow, Puteri you've wrote something so meaningful! I agree with you 100% on this!!!