..tonite..

hye readers..

hehehe..why i always start my new post with salutation to other people which i think might read this post? is there anyone outhere who is willingly to read other's people blog? it's my hope that there is at least one person who is generously spending his/her time to read my blog  and im really thankful to that person..:)

ok..back to work..indeed tonite is same like other nite where boredom is undeniably takes the place in my dictionary of life. tonite is not different from the previous nites as it's much cooler and freezier since it's winter now..yes, my first winter experience in my entire life..but without the snow, i would consider it as a day after the rain that splash my life to the state of freaking cold..tonite is yet another nite that pours me into the insufficient condition to do assignment and study for the exam..tonite is tonite..

huhuhu..well, what makes tonite different from other nites is that i realize how i've been jealous and wonder why i can't have what i want..tho the fact that im quite satisfied and thankful for all the love that i receive from people around me, it drives me back to the fact that how i can't be compassionate with sumone that i really want..of coz my 'abang' fulfill the need to be loved and to be in loved but then, i wonder why at first place, i can't be with someone that i longing to be with..

through all the testimonials, i know that im not his dreamgirl types-happy,cheeky, loves football- and of course i can't be like that becoz im not like that..anyhow, i like this person as much as i like my abang.but faith has destined me to be with the person that is not i dream off at the first place..but i really love my abang..more than anything..and im learning to accept that fact..

it's bizarre to write this blog-comparing my abang to another person-and thank God, he's not been able to read this due to the fact that he hasn't have frenster account, but for that person, i wish you all the love that you deserve in this world..

yet, tonite is an ordinary nite, but slightly different...

tonite is tonite...

p/s: no more further explaination after this..what remains here, remains here...

Comments

[wooi leong]

Well I am reading you blog now....Hehe....Mate, your Brisbane winter is nothing to Wellington's winter....it's like 12'c outside now....Lolzzz.....

[Rizzie McGuire]

im reading too..best!tak pernah miss this blog.seriuos.when someone update their blog dlm frenster,secara aoutomotik nye,sy dpt kesan dalam inbox email sy.dan.sy mmg suke bace blog!

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-rizie