oh god i still miss him

dear gentle reader,

as what you can read from the title above and surely, in this post, im sure that you can guess what im going to tell you guys. yes, shoot me and kill me please, that im still merindui him and gosh, how i wish i can end this feeling. i know, it's all over, and i have to go on with my life, my new life, but my feeling is still living in the past. my mind is always thinking about him, and rite now, while other people are laughing to the utmost, im crying and bleeding in pain. i miss him, miss him miss him but i know, i will not be with him. when can i get over it??

last nite, i did call him. it's a stupid thing that i always do, but i can't resist myself for not doing that. i miss him, that's why i text him n called him. but now, i know, he hates me, for contacting him. it seems that he's already forget me, which to me it has to be done, cause he's getting married this may..but what about me?

i miss him, more n more each day. i want to move on, but i can't. i know my frens will be disappointed and for that i am so sorry..

every day and every night, i miss him, so dearly and so much...

Tuhanku, please help me to vanish this feeling..